happy 18th birthday da tou! =)

I couldn't understand what I am thinking about for the past 3 days? Am I worrying too much? There are a couple of things going on in my mind now. I don't know how to plan. and I don't know what I should do.

Band is probably my priority now I guess. a few more months and everything will end. Am I being too sensitive with my section? Why is it that every time the same mistakes occur? I have gone through the same part and said the same thing over and over again. A few months ago till now. Things haven't really changed much. Mm. How can I improve the section? And how can I improve on my playing as well? I have taught em what I know.. Who else can fill the gap for me? I pray hard for everything to be well. June is another hectic month. I apologise if I am gonna be missing again this time..

As for the other thing on my mind. I do not know how to say it out. A few days ago a random thought came across my mind. I am terrifired. I am scared of losing. So I would rather lose it with time.. should if it really did happen someday, I hope that I could be more sensible in dealing with things..

haha.. but seriously, I think that I am worrying too much. excessive worrying is probably not good for health. I am thinking so much that I don't even understand why I am thinking about it! my brain hurts from all these thoughts as solutions never appear. I will be thankful if I don't need to think anymore. let everything take its own course..

=(

don't ask me why.
I am still trying to figure out as well.
I don't want to think.
But my brain can't stop thinking..

I met up with pikachu today. Pikachu is an imaginary character who likes to bully me all the time. The last time I met Pikachu was probably more than a year ago. had fun out. Wq came later and we went bowling! I got 109! haha.. super funny coz the two of them kept counting the number of 'long go' they got..

walked around the whole of marina square trying to find shoes coz something stupid happened to me again. In the end I managed to find charles and keith and so I got flats that I am comfortable with after visiting many shops. I realize that my foot is not fully recovered. I feel like running. But I can't. =(

After that I met up with 6f. It wasn't some big event. Just a simple gathering. I saw the photos that we took during ms chua's wedding. Everyone changed a lot. hope to develope these photos someday! yes. I am glad eugene, zhiquan and kenneth turned up today. it's always nice having them around coz they're probably the few that made me feel relaxed whenever I talk to em. Took bus back w eugene and we chatted non-stop. it's really amazing how primary school friends can still have so much to share. thanks for listening to me ranting non-stop! all the best to you too. study hard and hopefully we will meet up soon!

Ok! time to rest soon. tmr still must go to NIE for band. TIRED! Hmm. well I chose this path. smilez. tmr will be a great day out with the bandees as well. =)

March holiday is here once more. I am quite glad =) sorry for not updating lately coz there's some problems with blogger and it is super duper hard trying to access my blog. ok! let me write down all the fun stuff that happened to me for the past week.. write it all down before I forget em..

common test is finally over. I don't really want to talk about it. shall wait for the results to come back =) I realized that I get hooked onto tv drama every exam period because it is so draining and tiring studying that I will just sit down and do nothing. Every time I watch drama, it will make me ponder about life. Do such things ever happen in reality? how often do we see genuine love for each other and how often do people fight because of wealth and greed? mm. it's all so superficial. we just gonna be careful with what we do I guess..

I finally visited the old SIM. it's quite big and it made me realize that in a few months time, my life will be somewhat like that in a university. how would life be like? I got no idea how things will work but I certaintly hope that everything will go fine. =)

the most exciting day is probably thursday. we had chem spa and after which I waited for wq to finish her meeting. feeling v bored, I walked around the school and it eventually led me to the band room. it reminded me how I would find my way up to nycb band room after every exam, hoping that the room will be opened.. yupp. so I headed to the nj band room and jiahao really came! haha. I was super excited when I took out my instrument okay. haven't touched it for 3 weeks. I sat down and talked a lot of crap and rubbish to jiahao until I didnt have any time to go practise. hah. in the end wq and I left for town.. When we reached heeren, a hair stylist actually approached us and asked if we wanted to cut our hair as he will cut it free for us. feeling puzzled, we didn't accept the offer coz it's so weird!

mp came along later and we went to eat suki buffet! and the conclusion is that I am always the survivor of most buffets that I went to. haha. amazing hur. I can eat a lot ok. even though many said that I am quite thin. wahhaa. and later we went to take neo! It's so exciting I tell you. I havent took neo for 1 year already! oh my goodness. so the 4 of us (managed to get kek in) had fun taking neo! haha. e photo is really good. and the feeling is really great. xing fu de gan jue. it tempt us to take one more and so we did. the 2nd machine was horrid. everything went hay wire that wq n I couldnt stop cursing and laughing when we were designing the photo.. haha.. but it was a really fun experience! lalala~ we watched a movie after that and it prompted me to do something during the holiday. yes! i shall do it.

friday was road run and cl and I were the real runner. We regretted volunteering our help coz there's 3 irritating fellows in front of us. we spent 48 mins walking with em when the rest finished everything easily within 25mins. rah!

haha. sat was fun as well. after band I went all the way to tampines to get something. the bus ride was horrible. and I realized that I prefer the west side more! for some weird reason the people in east are weird and they like to stare at others. I made my way down to bishan after that and walked around. I didnt know a floral shop existed in j8 before! yupp! so i waited for my dear yumin to come and we went to rj concert. for some unknown reason, rj concert is a concert that I have been attending every year! why! mm. I also dont know but evey year there will be someone inside the band that I must go support. i went since sec2 till now. and rj standard dropped a lot. so much so that it was rather disappointing. I wonder why. went back home w margaret n ym. it's simply nice being with old friends. and yes. I miss ym dearly. =)

ok. this is a super long post. I need to go to school already. update more next time! smilez. happy holiday to all!