went back to ny on thurs and the first thing that mrs chitra said was:" yingxu! what has nj done to you? you're so thin!" haha. funny. why is it that everyone comments that I have grown thinner? so my reply to her was:"haha not really, it's because my uniform is too BIG, that's why I look thin." >.< saw one of my junior and she was like :"YINGXU! you've become prettier." HAHA. I laughed. I thought that I looked the same. maybe ny uniform really does make one look short and fat and ugly. Mm. realized how one year has passed and how people would change once they step out of their alma mater. Mdm Mak is leaving ny for Hong Kong? I think so. somehow the things that I see are no longer the same ever again.

beginning to fall in love with ice-cream recently. don't ask me why-it makes me happy! went out with a group of friends to island creamery on wed and spent 2 hours chatting and stoning. the pouring rain made us shiver but the feeling was great! =) I am beginning to understand s10 i guess. the bbq turned out well and I enjoyed myself lots. played pool after that and realized doing something simple with friends can really be very rewarding! special thanks to a few ppl who made my life this year fruitful.. thanks for helping me pull through my darkest moments in life and supporting me all the while! love you guys lots.

Ok. today is sunday. I finally went to sadeaf again. somehow I dread sunday morning coz the thought of going all the way to kallang really made me sian diao but everytime after the sign lesson I feel refreshed ! maybe it is because it is something out of the ordinary routine and meeting people and sharing stories made me really comfortable. especially when we all couldn't quite figure out how to sign. haha! i wanna pass the test! Mm.. today lollipops saved the day! all of us ate lollipop and couldnt make noise and shalini was grinning away. >.<

this holiday. I dont really feel like doing anything else. just wanna meet my old friends and cherish whatever that I have got! looking forward to going zoo with my dear quiny zj and audrey. looking forward to taking cable car! =)

thought of this sentence today:
"you need not be pretty. you need not go after designer's goods. it's the confidence you wear that differentiates you."

regaining my confidence! =)

hao tao yan zi ji..

zhen de hao tao yan zi ji...

Sometimes I wonder why different people exist in this world. While some of them are naive, other are unscrupulous. Today at jp, this little boy couldnt find his mother and tried calling her but the mother didn't want to tell HER son where she is. This hapless boy waited at the info counter for super long, looking so lost. What a lousy mother! the boy may have done something mischievous but that's definitely not the way to teach a child! Somehow I wish I can have the power to eliminate such lousy creatures on Earth..

Mmm.. been going home at weird timings lately and met different people who stay in my block.. It's weird talking to them coz I've never seen them before.. haha.. someone even asked my how long have I stayed here? funny. No idea if there will be more interesting characters coming up. Been talking to many ppl tt I don't really know. Be it online or in real life, my life is expanding all of a sudden, after being isolated for this hectic academic year. Maybe I should spend some time seeing what outside life is about. hah.

I don't ask for much anymore.. just pray for peace in the mind (:

Have I changed?

Why is it that I realize the way that I talk, the way I do things and the way that I handle myself is totally different. why? feels weird. coz the other self is not apparent.

Went MINDS and attended a volunteer session. I was trying hard to make myself awake. my life is so packed now. haha.. packed with things that I don't even know what they are.. went NIE just now.. had practice.. 10 trombones.. and I think we screwed it, or rather I screwed it. NIE reminds me of the june practices where we were busy preparing for concert.. i love the ppl in njcsb. not all but their presence really did make my life more fulfilling.. thanks guys.

got back results today. emotionless. but did ok. I am tired. yawns. but I don't feel like sleeping.. don't feel like wasting the night away..

shalini is a great instructor. was very tired today and was lazy to go down to sadeaf. dragged myself out of bed and attended the lesson. haha. very interesting! there's gonna be this halloween party on the 28th oct 5.30pm to 9pm at sadeaf! anyone interested to go tell me k? it's free and you'll get to experience deaf culture. i hope my signing is improving but i am still scared that i will fail the test. haha.

Mm. beginning to know more about jp. there's 3 mobile phone shops, namely starhub M1 and singtel. starhub on level 2, singtel directly above starhub and M1 at #03-15. haha. there's POSB atm at the entrance of NTUC and OCBC/UOB atm is near coffee bean. If you wanna buy games, there's a shop at level 3. Food courts are at level 3 and basement 1. There's also the money changer and the OSIM shop at basement 1. haha. i think it's amazing. will try to learn more about jp. =)

i dont want school to start tmrr..

went to this place near lavender alone. i took me one hour just to find that road. 46 Somme Road. gosh. even the people living there don't even know that the road existed. I got directed from one place to another.. Resisted taking cab coz I wanna find that place by foot. haha. o well I finally found it =) it's really tiring walking. plus the fact that I even went to the wrong side of the road to take bus. what am I doing?

I couldn't shake something off my mind. i hate it.. really hate it..

RAH! LET ME SCREAM.

the haze is really making me mad. I have been sneezing for the whole day and it's getting worse I think. haha. outside my window is so hazy! can't stand it. met an old friend. smiles.

A segment of my life has ended. Before embarking on a new path in life, i think I need to take a break. A break to let me rest and move on to the next stage.

Recounting back this year has been full of ups and downs. I haven't quite recovered from the recent setback. The mist in my life doesn't seem to go away. Stiill blinded and oblivious to the things around me and I seem to be dwelling on the past. I don't deny I have learnt. Learnt many things in life. Maybe that's something good. O well. All these doesn't matter anymore. Slowly figuring out how to move..

Went out with mp, wenqi and cheng today! haha. as usual the four of us. It was fun! we started off eating subway. then we went gelare and ate waffle with ice cream. walked n shopped and walked the whole of orchard. Realized that orchard is a lousy place. I think the old orchard is so much better. Nothing really interests me in town now. After that we went cine and bought ear rings! very nice and very cheap. haha. Went to sadeaf today to collect some stuff. Found new bus routes to sadeaf. lesson staring this sunday. EXCITED! hope i can pass BS1. haha. sign language! Mmm. yupp so we went bugis after that and ate mango strudel and before we left we ate tori Q. Wow. we've got big appetite! but the thing is I don't feel full. I am glad my diet is back. yay!

o ya. we went to this building and walked around. not a very nice place to shop but I found this shop very interesting. Frosty. Sells accessories and the ear rings attracted my attention. There's this pair that has the resemblance of a dream catcher in a ring. The threads used are very vibrant and I think it's really nice! It will definitely sell in the market soon. I am quite sure. The accessories are not very expensive as well so maybe I will go back there to buy.

Ok. I am tired.

wo zhang da le =)