haha.

sometimes I really laugh at my stupidity and my foolishness. Uncertainty lies ahead and I often find myself in the state of perplexity.

Why?

I have yet to decipher the root causes of all these mood swings and frequent headaches.

Ok. I just stole this from my cousin's msn nick:
"Love is not chemistry, not infatuation, not attraction, not sexual desire. Love is the wish to make some1 happy. It's altruism"

How funny. I was just thinking about certain issues a few moments ago. yupp. maybe that should be the way. I have got no time to waste and no strength to tackle any other stuff. Let me study hard! Afterwhich I will take a short break and then immerse myself in the christmas season.

I LOVE CHRISTMAS =)

racing against time!

I find it hard to breathe..

..I am trying, trying really hard...

I had a dream last night about you and it turned out to be a nightmare for me. why? How I wish that such dreams will never appear ever again coz it's a torture going through all these. I dreamt that you appeared in my life again even though reality begs to differ.

please get these all out of my mind. I am suffocating.

Being mentally exhausted, I went Central with my siblings to have lunch. We travelled all the way there just to eat Manhantten fish market and we had Macha Zen from Azabu Sabo as well.

As my brother and I made our way back, we passed by penisula plaza (next to Funan to IT Mall). It struck me that zj had accompanied me to this building once very LONG ago before my jc life started to exchange something. My brother and I then boarded 174 and the scorching hot sun made us very uncomfortable - we both had headache.

......

Plaza Singapura - went there after my last O level paper to watch harry potter.
Town.
NJC.
Nygh.
Band.
KAP.
Bt Timah.

.......

for goodness sake, I think I should start studying and find better stress management.
=(

as time draws nearer, I realized that many are pressing hard for time. I do not want to question how I spent the last 3 months?? I learnt a great deal of things and saw the cruelty of life. haha.

anyway! just wanna tell my dearest friends - 204, wq,mp n cl not to be too stressed w work. haha. we have survived through A's. What's worse than that?

jiayou everyone! I look forward to seeing you guys on deepavali! =) miss you guys lots!

I left off the last post talking about the active ageing carnival =) well, what i wanted to say was that I enjoy doing social work because it is very fulfilling to see the smiles of the elderly and that they thank you continuously just because you've spent a day with them. I always remember myself following my dad for such events when I was much younger. Because of the fact that my dad is grassroot leader and that he was very active in all these events, ie walk-a-jog, cc carnival day, family day, mid-autumn, I grew up in this environment.

despite the walk starting at 7.30am most of the time, my dad will bring the whole family to the Community club at 6.30am. *yawns* haha. I remember going to their conference room to nua and drink as many packets of milo and packet drinks as I want. hehe =)

I don't mind going back to do such events and be part of all these! shall go join YEC if i can at the end of the year =)

alright. I went to ps last friday trying to eat some dim sum buffet that costs only $10.20 as advertised the day before by TV. depiste reaching there at 1 plus, i waited till 3pm - who knows that when I go back at 3pm, they told us that the restaurant is full and you must book in advance.

$#%@$%#&$&!^(!@#(*!@(%^&*@#&!

haha. I was super dissapointed!!! gosh! cheat my feelingss... ended up eating ajisen in the end. Mm. went to airport on 19th oct to send justin off. been to T3 for 3 times this year already. ahha~ he's gonna be away for almost 3 weeks!!!

okok. let's talk about sth happy! my marketing presentation finally went well! after being condemned for 3 times, he finally commented that our presentation was excellent. haha! yay! great work to my team members, jingwen, mery, jiamin n xinyi!! yipee!

went fort canning to help out in active ageing. quite a lot of things to write down. Will come back next time for more.

**6 more days to go**

Internal Combustion.

I need to find the drive from within to push myself further..

For some weird reason, I seem to be missing many recently.

whee!!

was looking through my jc photos and I wanna say I miss many people!!

I miss -

WENQI
MEIPING
CHENG LUAN
BENJAMIN
JIAHAO
BIX + JOSEPHINE
n many more band ppl..

can't wait to see you guys! everyone hang in there with whatever you're doing k?

As i stepped into KAP for project meeting in the morning, I saw someone familiar. I scruntinized the person and as the person turned around, he saw me and came over to say hi. haha. I almost forgot how I came to know Jackson and I realized that I haven't seen him for more than 2 years already. He didn't change much though. I seemed to have met another friend of his sometime last year at KAP too. why is the whole world going KAP? couldn't believe that I have spent 6 years of my life revolving around kap..

heh. okay! =)

happy children day =)

i couldn't help but to recall my primary school days where everyone will bring food to school and all of us will go home with a bag full of tidbits and toys!! haha. yummy yummy!

Been spending the past few days pondering about certain issues. Yes I am determined to strive and excel in everything I do now. even though I don't like agree with certain grading system and the quality of education received, I will put in my very best.

haha.I am gonna study for IT Quiz later. WISH ME LUCK. cannot afford to screw it.

18 more days to go and yet I haven't prepared anything. what should i make? totally no idea. haha. aiyo!! >.<