how does it feel to be in love?

read someone's blog.. seems like she's fallen in love with a guy.. haha.. its like a game.. you like someone but you dont dare to say it.. when you see him you will tend to walk or run away.. but deep down in your heart you were hoping that the guy would have caught notice of you and stopped you.. heh.. the feeling is just awkward and at the same time... sweet. maybe it happened to me a long long time ago.. so long that i dont even remember it.. but i dont think im looking forward to any of such things now.. i've seen some of my friends.. its really cool to be in love.. but when they break.. its like hell.. just cant stand people who do not take other's feelings seriously..

lost. im lost.

when you love someone, you should be happy. and most of all, is to know that the other person is happy.. a thought of him will make you smile and seeing the sms will drive away all the sadness.. leaving you heart warmed up.. i dont know. love works wonder.. no one can control it..

what does it really mean to love someone?.. hmm.. guess its something that i dont want it to happen to me now.. coz.. its not easy for me to fall in love with someone.. and its even harder for me to actually forget him.. i've finally managed to get over him.. after like 2 years.. though he still holds a special place in me.. boo.

im tired of everything.. human relationship is so profound.. even between friends, classmates, schoolmates, or just with a stranger you bump on a street.. its just so difficult to explain and stuff.. why cant human just live in peace.. with a simple life.. but lotsa fun-filled happiness.. we fight for our own happiness.. but sometimes we are too tired ourselves to even fight for it.. =x

im tired.