yay! its finally weekend. im so exhausted during weekdays. so tired that i dont even know whats going on around me.. hmm.. this week i missed one school day.. but im still as tired.. the workload will only increase and its never ending.. im really going mad because im like reaching home after 8pm everyday and 10pm on thur.. this is utter madness. i practically got no life. and my time is taken up by school and band. i dont even have much time to sleep.. resulting in my panda eyes. yes so my weekends will be time for me to s.l.e.e.p.

i wonder at times why we must study and study so hard when most things that we are learning or have learnt wont be of any use to us. i hate singapore's education system.. if i ever have the chance, i will migrate.. its too stressful and i doubt little kids can tolerate such stress at such a young age!.. yes so i must earn money.. and move to somewhere with peace and freedom.. its so competitive down here.. either you fight or you lose.. *yawns*

today was the nysc investiture.. was crap.. i was down once again for psgl duty.. anyway wasnt awake for the whole of today also. not enough sleep.. so many people were late and frankly speaking, this invest is not of very good standard and its kinda boring. this led to think about me being a psl.. for some schools they psl have higher recognition and are not treated like slaves like us..in ny psl are like free labour for the school.. anything the councillors dont want to do they ask the psl or BOM to do.. its so crappy. ushers, tour leading and almost anything that needs labour they call psl.. and we were not given any recognition in the school.. yes. you can count this as exploitation.. so much for nothing.

drained out. next week gonna be another busy week.. 4 tests and there's sch rehearsal on wed which will drag till eleven plus.. and there goes my sleep again. o crapx.

i need to break free.