Today is the last day of 2010. So much has happened throughout the year..

As the new year is approaching, it made me realized how things are constantly changing every moment. I didn't quite like school and I still don't like it. Year 2 sem 2 was horrible but I managed to pull through thanks to my friends who stayed with me and helped me out. During the semester I lost someone very dear to me. Everything came too fast but somehow I always feel that he is still around. Family structure has changed and so has the relationships between the people. I can never figure out why some people are obsessed with money and blinded by greed. Perhaps, it is better to nip in the bud and cut all ties before the relationships get too complicated later on.

I am glad that I have met 2 very interesting tutors in that semester that made me learn a lot and mature as an individual. First of all is my AA201 tutor Prof Low. K. Y. I am never good at accounting but he made me think a lot - made me think through the role of accountants in today's society. I remembered that there was once where I didn't do the tutorial as I couldn't understand the question. Instead of giving the weird stare that some professors do, Prof Low guided me through. Though it was a small issue, it spurred me to work harder and I completed all my tutorials thereafter. He is someone that is very approachable and someone that I really admire. Thank you so much for your guidance and I am so thankful that I have attended your class.

The second tutor that changed my perspection of life is Mrs Faith Tan. She's a lovely tutor who has taught me a lot in life. Having been through the corporate world, she shared with us her personal experiences and I figured that what she had described about the harsh reality of life seemed to be a reflection of what I am facing right now. I have met very nasty people in this semester and it's so tiring managing people. Indeed, it wouldn't be surprising to know that there are people who 'sleep' their way up the corporate ladder. *shrugs* As much as I thank her for her wonderful compliments, I can't help but to tell myself that reality isn't as rosy as what she painted. Optimism is good, but it has to run parallel with realism. nevertheless, I really miss her lessons.

To be frank, I didn't quite like going to school this semester because I am constantly on my toes. I don't want people to know me because of who am I and I don't like it when people try to get close to me because they want to leech on me and get something out of me. Why? Why must the world be like this? I have met too many devils this time round and it's really painful being someone I am not. I hate it when I am constantly on the guard, I hate it when I can't be my true self because someone else will take advantage of me. I sincerely pray and hope that my final semester in NTU will be a better semester for me.

Sometimes it is just very difficult for me to fathom what the rest are thinking and the motives behind all their actions. Quoting from one project grp mate I met this sem, 'I don't need many friends. I want good friends.'

ha. what a contradiction. some people out there enjoy meeting hi-bye friends, even though they know clearly in their hearts that these 'friends' are only superficial friends.

Mm.. there has been many ups and downs in this final year of mine. Maybe because I am entering the workplace soon and reality is slowing drawing upon me. I feel really lost during this transition period because I am out of my comfort zone once again. What I truly seek for is just a peace of mind with my loved ones living their lives happily without any worries.

Life is hard, but I will fight harder :)

Thank you to my dearest friends who have helped me in one way or another. May 2011 be a better year for everyone!