It really hurts to see you cry and to suffer in pain and I can't do anything to rectify the situation. I really wish I could help you out, but somehow I can't help but to agree with others that you've made a wrong decision last time. You've spent so much time on things that ain't exactly that important and you've neglected other stuff. Yes you like it but is it worth so much of your time and commitment? What exactly can you get out of it?

Since you're firm with your decision to stay where you are now, all of us will respect you. Make sure you don't regret k. And please stay happy. love you always.